Thursday, February 20

Seven and Five

Hello World. Seems like I haven't been here in awhile. I've revisited unfinished blogs, which I talk about frequently, but still I'm inactive. December passed by and so did a New Year and not a blog to my name. As of late, I can't think of anything to write about. However, I'm feeling a little bit more appreciative tonight. I'm just going to ramble about random subjects so you can stop reading because I can assure you I will bore you. I'll number each subject so I don't get carries away. Seven is a good number, so I'll stop at seven. This is my seven subjects at 5 A.M.
  1. I very much appreciate the people in my life. I find it odd that sometimes I want to shout out "Hey bro/sis/friend/family you know I love you!" Somewhere in time I became less expressive and the only gesture I can accumulate is the words, "I love you." Thinking about it often, but saying it less often hurts. It's odd you know just to out and say it without reason or validation. Also, I don't want to exhaust the times I say it causing my loved ones to be deafened by it.
  2. I take pictures for granted. Nights like these come from old Facebook pictures. I regret deactivating it so sporadically because there are pictures out there that I'm not tagged in. In term, that's another memory that is harder to recollect. I need more pictures yo.
  3. I'm a runner, physically and emotionally. I run away from problems just as swiftly as I can run a mile, without fatigue. Not wanting to elaborate on this subject, I'll leave it as just that.
  4. In a sense, I don't want to go back to school in fear that I'll lose another 4 years of my life to something so trivial without my family and friends.
  5. I wish I contacted my friends more. I let them fall off the wagon and have become that friend that you have to go to first. I hate those friend, hypocritically. We don't have to talk every day or once a week, but catching up annually isn't my example of holding a friendship. Becoming passive is killing me. They mean to much to me to agreed with "Life happens."
  6. I've realized recently that I no longer have to look over my shoulder. The drama is over, the fighting is over and hopefully the grudges will be over. Feels good to enjoy life as it comes. I now disgusted at that part of my life.
  7. I want to shout out several people without isolating others. There are names I could list off top right now to say thank you, but I won't. Moreover, this number 7 isn't about already repeating what I've been saying, but that I'm scared to write. I'm afraid because what I write may hurt someone, under their assumption. I believe one of my earlier blogs, I said that I'll keep it indirect. There are so many reader I do and don't know about here that one thing I may write about one person may affect more than one person the same way. Bear with me.